.."Brown Eyed Blues"

"Patience is the key"

Goodbye 2008. I can't wait for 2009
This year, do me well & please show me what
LOVE really means<3

dfc, one day.
Git drunk bitches, & party fucking hard becoz' when
you wake up its a new year(:

main reso :

THINK POSITIVE!

xoxo,

ayobee

.."My late night sweet love<3"

11 to 3 o'clock

late night mission busting

angeles crest

D A M N,

thats all I have I have to say<3



xoxo,


ayobee

.."The day after Christmas"

Hope everyone Had a very fantastic Christmas day & Eve. Mos def, I did(:
I mean, sure I wish I was

with all the relatives opening gifts at 12 with all the cousins and having the uncles crack jokes,

while all the aunts in the corner saying how grown up you got & your "so pretty now"
blah blah.

But my chrismas eve, was filled with a good dinner/ church at the
Los angeles Cathedral of the Angels& opening gifts upstairs.
This year, wasn't that much exciting,not many gifts, but I'm glad it was still
m i n e<3 Gifts consisted of ; The tmobile G1(:
My parents paid off the driving school so I can get my permit finally that GOD!
Oh and did I tell you, a ticket to New york City for the end of January? ;]
Mos def, I miss the city. Its been a while since Ive been there and this time, I got more things
on my plate to do now that I'm all grown up. Clubbing in the City? Why hello there, cute city boys! ;]
Alryte,alryte. I ended this 2008, very well I must say.
Deleting 1900 off my myspace friends, not talking/dating anyone for about 1 month now(:
& hey! thats really good, knowing myself. haha, yup!
New start, for 2009 and I'm doing this year right mos def :)

Last night, I watched V a l k y r i e & let me tell you thats the most people
I've ever seen in the movie theatre EVER ! I never realized that the movies was
the only thing open on Christmas day. How crazy! But I was pretty disappointed, I mean sure
the movie had an interesting plot and what not, but in all honesty there was NOT enough VIOLENCE!
Yeah, I know Im a girl, and Im into movies like these. But dang, more blood needed especially since
it was fucking about overthrowing HITLER, am I right or am I right? But the funny part was that
there was a seat next to me, no one sat there and I was just gonna play it off like " oh Im saving this seat"
so that no smelly old fart would sit next to me like me & yanyans always do. But luckily noone sat next
to me, haha suckers. But whatevs!

David FUCKING chea, I hate you for waking me up this morning <3
Alryte, So cuzzo Ambereezy coming back today from the Yay areeea.
Thank God! Okay, well Im off to go shower, cos im dirty ;)
love ya'lllll !

xoxo,

ayobee

.. "The hurtful truths"

Okay so today, let me just tell you how overwhelmed beyond words I am.

&My right hand thought this was a perfect "blogspot moment"so here I go writing

about my wonderful day *sarcasm used. This is dedicated to that one person.

For you to say something like that not even to me yourself

but to find out because

someone that actually cares about me told me? Wow, you know ive

talked my peace but I would never think to say something like you did. & fuck, it hurt so much, like a bullet

running through my heart, cos why? I cared for you, I really tried making efforts to keep our

"friendship" but obviously you left my life for a reason and I left yours for the better, like you said.

I'm not gonna put this

on blast & point you out because its not worth it and I'm not

that type of person. But let me tell you, that yes I have gave up on you

..I tried & all of my efforts are better to be used on people that

are positive vibes in my life. Its still crazy how, those people that I havent been through so much with

feels like Ive known them forever& their respect for me and my feelings are so much better

than the "friends" you think that are there for you.

I cried alot today, and damn it hit me hard. Hard enough it made my wife cry when I told

her what "that person" had said.

Right hand Chick, your friendship means the world to me and we've

been through SO MUCH and you know what we found out today changes everything

but through thick & thin; were still rollin' til the day we have babies.

Its already down to only a few t r u e f r i e n d s and mos def I know who they are.

I'm really thankful, for my Tripod and 3Mbabys<3>

..Somethings die, somethings stay the same

&alyssa, our friendship will never die.

I never thought we'd be so close, but things change for a reason and I'm happy they did.

I love you girls with all my heart, & through whatever I love you guys.

xoxo,

ayobee™

..Lyrical Soul

Alryte, so in this blog of today December 2nd, 2008.
I feel that I should let you guys meet the poetic/lyrical side of who I am.
But before that I would like to tell you the simple highlights of today :
+ Chem Class = Pad on the window
+ Text messages (:
+ Islands with the right hand<3
+ Plans for Cuzzo Ambereezys Bday
& hmm, early winter formal dress shopping ideas? Oh me & my date will
look absolutely show'stoppin ;] pwuaha. it means alot to me; & I hope he knows that.

Okay, well thats pretty much what happened at school. Oh and one last thing, I love my
honeybunches/ride or die/grand daughter/ muchox3
I'm always gonna be here for you boo.

so here it goes, leave me with what you think of my poflow-e-try.

my lyrical outreach

" .. Wanna meetcha baybee with the fitted cap, shawty wants to holla back, but how can I git at that if you trynna

stay away from the fall, of it all. Her hands held out ready to catch if you fall. Silent but deadly with your gas mask on

scared of it all. And the ugly scent of fear on her chest, when you caress her, bless her with your presence. But she

knows on her mind, on her brain, that she needs you, wants you & she do her, but you do you. What boo? Do you

want it? Lay it out, on the paper, no this aint no test or statement that you need to prove to her but you should. Show

her, you want her, need her. She loves you? thats too early, but your like huh, it seems all blurry. Its cliche when they

say, that you should get to know him more but hey, they dont know the feelings inside, when you try and hide that

you get butterflies when you see him, you smile, and he sees you but what does he do? Act like she isnt there, not

visible, see through. Yeah you, I see through, y-o-u. So now its you,on her brain, your just the same type of lame that

she wanted to stay away from, but yet your magnetic, got her stuck to you like glue. Now she knows that she should

leave, but no no she's happy by you, but little does she know, she is being deceived. By the lies and all the gains that

you receive, so much greed, puff puff pass, shes high off of this joint nah, no weed just life its crazy. I call you baby

but it is not valuable to the fact that you act like a child, not knowing where to go, who to run to. Your lost, and yet

she's still there, at the end of the light, you might realize that you should take her hand, be the man, that she knows

you could be, and maybe after all the lies that you have verbally spoken to her, she'll forgive you, cos her heart is with

you. As one, one whole she takes a deep breath, you console, her. Love her, trust her, you finally open those eyes,

her love is now magnified, so you see clearly now that maybe she, can be the one for you, that will love you, for who..

you are. Look around you next time when you feel so alone, dont dwell on the past because it'll haunt your soul,

eating at your very memories that put you down, down yes he/ or she will be,and yes she will do whatever she can to

prove to you, that she will not leave you. but hey, there is no gain without any pains that you and her will endure

through, just keep that head up, and keep that love high because that bond once its gone,you will no longer hear that

song, that her heart plays when you say I love you to her, and when you tell her that you love her make sure it runs

deep through your veins not just any word, not just any phrase but a meaning that goes beyond this page. Take

chances, love life, and progress to be the best of the best. ©

xoxo,


ayobee™