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Okay, So I've been super busy with this overwhelming life of mine & finally I have time to update you guys on what has happen in the past 4 1/2 day(s). Alryte lets start off with friday of last week, which was the 14th of November when

I was suppose to kick it with my babycakes but that ended up not happening because he had things to deal with. Which sucks because I really wanted to kick it with him. But anyways, I ended up watching "Quantum of Solace" 007 which was a pretty intense action movie if your into those James bond movies and what not.

But I was super tired and idk if it was me or the movie that was making me fall asleep. I was coughing like the whole movie -_____- this f/cking cough has not gone away yet, and its pissing me off >: and nyquil does not work on my

body no more.

Oh & I was suppose to go with Jawsh ; but his ass couldn't come out since the movie was at 9 -____- So as usual I third wheeled it with my brother& his girlfriend(: But It was still fun free movie.

Now, Saturday morning. That was pretty fun actually, I slept super late b/coz I watched that movie and I had to wake up super early cos there was no food at home& my brother was gonna go buy me some chowking :] yum. haaa

So then, we got sh/t for the bbq we was going to have that night & we went to Ralphs to buy some alcohol; cheese;& all this other sh/t. But one thing I wanna point out was when I went to Ralphs there was the most beautifulest thing there = "paper or plastic?" *insider.

Then I had to go with my brother to the car wash; then went home & pretty much chilled til I got ready for Krista'Kae's puh puh party(; Now that was pretty fun hehe; all the ladies looked so cuutesyyy :)

So, me & yanyans shared a gift for krista; it was the cutest/funniest card ever .."What kind of card is this? BIG! How big is this birthday?"Big! ha! Funnny.

Now,I wasnt there for long which sucked bootay because everyone was having fun but I had that Bbq at my house. & Oh boy, that night was so effing crazy. Lets just put it as this 35 % of Alcohol + Bacardi + Smirnoff = Bad! Right yanyans? Yeah, she came over and slept over too.

But her weaksauce ass didnt wanna drink much, & I had to drink it cos my brother was buggin realtalk! Oh & Jawsh came to kick it finally! (: Oh & P.s he is sucha bad liar " ..the traffic is bumper to bumper" roflmao nice one.

I was pretty much gone well, not that GONE but I was pretty fucked & I was like calling almost everyone in my phone book and at the time it wasnt the best day b/c of crap with the babycakes.

But I came to a conclusion that night & it was that; I like him. I really do. & I dont give a fuck about whatever everyone is trynna tell me. & If this shit goes down the drain like all the other failures in my life. Ima brush it off & try again.

Its life, thats what were suppose to do. Take chances, live freely,& remember that with every mistake we grow as a person.

Sunday = Chill day, took yanyan to work. Returned things @ Macy's. Bought my new queen-sized mattress (:

Monday highlite was when I spoke to my babygirl,&potna at lunchtime. Talk about deep-talks. "Time is just a cliche" & Honestly, you can always learn even when your with someone because what is left to learn when you talk to someone for so long? *Think about that.

Because we did, & you know what. Its true. If in your heart you feel its right then you might as well take a chance because you got nothing to lose. You should do what you gotta do; do you & if that person does you wrong, thats on him.

I believe trust is very hard to obtain especially because its hard to trust not knowing whether or not youre going to get hurt in the end. But from what Ive learned is that, every person in my life that has effected me good/bad has made me who I am today.

I know that I'm ready for a relationship& I know that I could be the greatest girlfriend and I'm ready to show him that I'm down. But sometimes I wish he gave me more reassurance, I mean thats all us girls ask for right? Reassurance.

Hmm, well each day keeps getting better & he keeps telling me "dont doubt him, dont doubt him" and thats what I'm going to do. I needa relax, and be calm. I'm excited tho' for this, for us. & With my main girls right by my side; I'm ready to face whatever is to be thrown at me.

Well, tmrw makes me anxious because its his 18th birthday tmrw. & I'm gonna go surprise him well not really because he knows but he doesnt know what I made/got him. Well, okay I think thats pretty updated for now. If anything I'll add more laters <3

xoxo,

ayobee™