It's hard to go by everyday trying to prove a point.
It's hard thinking that you have so much to offer but you haven't been appreciated.
It's hard knowing that life doesn't always give you lemons, but gives you a pitcher with nothing inside.
Life, is hard, and noone said it would be easy and right now I've reached the lowest of lowes.
God, I need you<3
and I know it's cliche to think that I'll be down in the dumps forever but sh*t, why can't
my parents understand me? Seriously, I feel like I try to say connected with them, and I tell them
alot more than I should. But yet, it's never enough is it? I've never felt this hurt by the
words my dad has told me and mos'def I can't really have any sympathy for what he's going through
since he is taking it out on me which is unfair. To hear them say, "..how can you be
the savior of the family if your not even thinking, you don't appreciate us, you need to stop running away
from your problems, it's like on repeat in my head and each time tears fall down my
cheek. It hurts. To the depths of my soul, and on top of that, my heart feels the need to just
take a vacation once again, and sh/t I feel so stupid. I need to learn, i really do because disappointment
is NOT an option. I'm going to do whatever is necessary to make it through life,and with or without
my parents by my side, IDGAF. I know maybe I'm just angry and sad that I'm writing this
but because of ones failures, I'm the one that has to put up with the after effect and it;s not fair at ALL.
Life is life, and like Mark says, you really have no say as a minor. I'm counting the months til
i'm fucking 18, cos' the day I do I'll know that my voice actually really matters but it's kind of funny
how the media encourages us to "Raise Our Voice" when really does our voice matter?
xoxo,
Ayobee™
It's hard thinking that you have so much to offer but you haven't been appreciated.
It's hard knowing that life doesn't always give you lemons, but gives you a pitcher with nothing inside.
Life, is hard, and noone said it would be easy and right now I've reached the lowest of lowes.
God, I need you<3
and I know it's cliche to think that I'll be down in the dumps forever but sh*t, why can't
my parents understand me? Seriously, I feel like I try to say connected with them, and I tell them
alot more than I should. But yet, it's never enough is it? I've never felt this hurt by the
words my dad has told me and mos'def I can't really have any sympathy for what he's going through
since he is taking it out on me which is unfair. To hear them say, "..how can you be
the savior of the family if your not even thinking, you don't appreciate us, you need to stop running away
from your problems, it's like on repeat in my head and each time tears fall down my
cheek. It hurts. To the depths of my soul, and on top of that, my heart feels the need to just
take a vacation once again, and sh/t I feel so stupid. I need to learn, i really do because disappointment
is NOT an option. I'm going to do whatever is necessary to make it through life,and with or without
my parents by my side, IDGAF. I know maybe I'm just angry and sad that I'm writing this
but because of ones failures, I'm the one that has to put up with the after effect and it;s not fair at ALL.
Life is life, and like Mark says, you really have no say as a minor. I'm counting the months til
i'm fucking 18, cos' the day I do I'll know that my voice actually really matters but it's kind of funny
how the media encourages us to "Raise Our Voice" when really does our voice matter?
xoxo,
Ayobee™
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